It's Called "On The Rocks"

How do you talk about things you're not expected to "talk about"?

I mean, people doesn't know that "some things" are in your mind, you want to shout out loud, ask somebody to clear "these" things up to you...

Basta malabo, basta bawal sabihin...in this cruel world like ours, gusto ko na lang isipin na we really make our own destinies...

At kung ano man 'yon na iniisip ko, I CAN if I WILL...but I CAN'T...

Ewan...basta...I am right in the middle of a very complicated situation already...Either I do something or not, to make things more complicated...basta...magulo, at least for you...

Sa akin malinaw...Pero bawal...Nakakainis...

Nakakatawa rin...ano kaya iniisip mo?

Ms. Piggy

Ms. Piggy Me went to the hospital, carrying all baby fats and post-pregnancy weight.

Ms. Piggy Me lost 10 kilos because hospital food is not good, and she, most of the time has no appetite.

Ms. Piggy Me came home.

Ms. Piggy Me pigged-out.

Ms. Piggy Me ate all the food she longed to eat for months.

Ms. Piggy Me gained back the 10 kilos.

Ms. Piggy Me is counting for more...

The Angel that Keeps Me Going...

My dear Andrei,

I have always dreamed of having an angel like you. And when you came into my life, I knew God gave me a blessing I’d cherish my entire life. The whole nine months of carrying you in my womb and all the time until today are memories inscribed in my heart. You know, I had a lot of plans for you, for us. All the things I hope would be best for you. From giving warm comfortable clothes, to giving you milk when you’re hungry, to singing you lullabyes when you sleep. But then mommy’s being around always had to stop early because mommy got sick. I had to stay in the hospital for long periods of time. Mommy can’t carry you when mommy’s at home, and mommy can’t get near you always, because mommy just can’t. You know, mommy is just sick but mommy is already dying knowing time is uncertain and I can’t be taking care of you in those times we have or we have left. Now mommy is always praying that I get well again, so I can make up for the times I had to be away from you. I want to be beside you to kiss and hug you and comfort you each time I want to and each time you need me…Baby, things are just so complicated right now. But I want you to know that despite mommy’s frequent absence, you are always in my heart and I love you very much. You are the reason why I keep on fighting for my life, you are the reason I had to look forward to tomorrow and you are the very reason why mommy believes that God creates miracles…because you are one miracle in my life. I love you.

Mommy

Funny things 1

Writing releases a lot of stress…It’s a good outlet…Even better than talking…At least for me right now…I’d probably catch my breath every 6 to 8 sentences I speak…The result of doing almost nothing and the lack of vigor caused by my illness and absence of exercise…I just thank God I have good food to eat and I have the appetite to do so…At least I would have enough nutrients to nourish my “dormant” body…Heck, I’m gaining so so much weight…

Ughh...

So many things to do, so little time…Repeats like a loop in my mind…I’m home, not as busy as career people or students think they are, almost lying on the bed the whole day…I have a lot of things to do, listed on my mind…But I can’t…My energy is just enough for me to talk, to walk around the house for a while, munch the food I eat…Things we do to sustain ourselves…Yeah, it’s hard, you’d feel helpless…I sometimes do…And I hate to think that I have all the time (from doing almost nothing everyday) to write for my dear blog but I can’t…Ughh…