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Not a Peanut Anymore...

Can already stand up while holding on to something...


My darling litttle angel...once called "Peanut" (because of his birth size as compared to his american counterparts in the nursery)...has now grown to a very curious and eager, super walang takot, cute little baby...turning 8 months this september (hayy,how time flies! malapit na mag-christmas and 1-year birthday! Hello Ninangs and Ninongs!!!

Buddha Boy - Super Chubby like Mommy! hehehe!

Wearing Mommy's bandana...

I love my baby Andrei so much...gives me all the reasons to be happy and strong...

Homecoming

Philippine Science High School will hold its annual Alumni Homecoming days from now…Should my doctor give me a go signal in tomorrow’s check up, I’d be looking forward to a great TGIF gimmick!
Let’s just say that this will be my first Gimmick cum Night Out with Friends for the year…In the States, I hardly had the time to go clubbing or watch movies with my cousins and friends because I had to take care of my dear Andrei…When I came back here in the Philippines, I had to do the same routine (even though we finally found a nanny for Andrei) and also because I’m immuno-compromised (can’t get exposed to sick people, even the slightest cough and cold virus will hit me)…
I would be taking the opportunity to personally thank friends and teachers who have prayed for me, donated blood, etc. It’ll also be a great time to see batchmates I haven’t seen for five years now…
I can’t imagine how time flies easily…F for Friday, F for Fun, Fun, Fun!!!

Tech-Talk 1 - From Pagers to Mobile Phones

Don’t expect to read something too-techy…hehehe…

Before the emergence of the Mobile Phone Crazy Generation, there was the Age of Pagers…It was late-1990s when my daddy finally gave in to my whim…after all, the rest of the family has one…He gave me his old Easycall unit…I can still remember the number was 141-244813…Hahaha…

Then came more stylish models, especially from Pocketbell…So the rest of the family had to upgrade, and again, me to have a hand-me-down…Actually, I don’t mind having hand-me-downs, especially when at that time, I was one of the very few from my peers who have the same gadget. (Call me a show-off, I don’t mind ‘cause somehow I am…hehehe)

It was in 1998 when I first bought my own cellphone (the money was from my savings, harhar!) Bosch was the in thing then…I had the same unit as my sister and brother, Bosch608 (I had the black, though it has interchangeable housing tops, colored yellow, maroon and blue)…Months after, new Nokia models came out, and heck! They’re nice-looking than mine…

DIAGRAM:
EasyCall Pager (one-liner unit) → EasyCall Pager (3-liner unit) →
Bosch608 → Nokia 5110 → Nokia 3210 →
Ericsson R320 → Nokia 7110 → Nokia 3310/3315 → Nokia 3200 → Nokia 3200 / Nokia 3650 → Nokia 3230

After my dear Bosch608, Cellular Phone Companies kept on producing better models…and people kept on upgrading their phones…They just can’t get enough! And me too! As the “Diagram” shows, I had a bunch before I bought my newest phone just last week! (It was when I was finally allowed to come out of the house…you know, viruses…)

I have saved enough money to buy myself a new phone (despite people complaining that I seldom use it anyway…), sold my Nokia 3650 (the one with the rounded keypad, very memorable since I bought it in the US, it still has the US phone network settings on it) to someone who’s going to the US (might as well use it there!) and traded-in my Nokia 3200 (the one with transparent housing, and interchangeable paper-cut designs).

Now I have my Nokia 3230…I could say, I’m happy with it, complete with all the functions I need and want to have…1.3 megapixel camera with 3x zoom, video and voice recording, cute themes, Bluetooth/infrared/pop-port connectivity, 32mb mmc, tri-band, ptt capability, fm radio and mp3 player, calendar and to-do-list, cute imaging applications and many others…

Hmm…before buying the phone, I said to myself that I would keep it longer than my other phones…especially since I chose it with all the functions I think I need…I just wish I still kept either my Nokia 3650 or my Nokia 3200 (for Sun Cellular purposes)…

To be concluded…

The Fastest 2 Years of My Life...

As a kid, I have always wanted to grow fast – probably because of the 4 years (and more) gap between me and my older brothers and sister…Feeling ko, I need to catch up on a lot of things…hence, I made myself believe that I need to mature early, way too early for my age…As if a baby in diapers started using lipstick…this I think, was the culprit why I skipped on a lot of things (a more “in” social life - partying, gimmicks, lunches & nights out with friends, flings and more boyfriends…hehe) and took a shortcut…

Last year was the start of the Fastest Two Years of My Life…Rushing to the family life, I carried a bouncing baby boy in my tummy for nine months…accompanied by many other complications we only found out that time…A possible miscarriage, a lump in my right armpit (still considered breast area), a lump in the uterus (a.k.a. myoma) an ailing right kidney (way too small than the normal), a borderline diabetes (too much sweets dear) and an overworked brain still trying to figure out how in the world am I still alive with all those and how am I going to survive all those with a baby growing along with them inside me…Whew…

Yes, I am a very sickly kid, I have a normal fever temperature of 400C without convulsions…I would usually have fever or infection at least every 2 months…And my parents could have made an “excuse letter” template patented in their name… I assume that my family wasn’t shocked to find out all of those I mentioned above…I think “it’s just a matter of time” thing…

I flew to the US in hope that I would be able to get through the pregnancy “healthy”. After nine months of waiting, and all the slang I had to understand, and the dilemma of having to translate my “aray” to “ouch” during labor, I delivered an “eagle-marked” cute and healthy baby…I had a biopsy for the armpit lump which said it was benign but would still need to be excised…a ‘disappeared” myoma (which probably was just behind a big baby during ultrasound sessions), a function-stabilized mini-kidney…a tamed down diabetes…and a re-acquired sanity…

After packing “our” things and saying my goodbyes…the flight back home was the quickest airborne travel I ever had in my life…Back in the Philippines, I had to deal with my baby, change soiled diapers, breastfeed, do the laundry, etc. Good thing I had the instinct of reading “homemaking” books since age 10…

I barely (or maybe I just tried to ignore) had the time to attend to “unfinished” medical concerns…I was too absorbed with my darling little angel and too lazy to burn some calories…After 2 months as a stay-at-home mom (with a MOM figure), I prepared myself going back to school again to finish my remaining units…It’s because of my mom’s pleading (I’ll be busy with plates and esquisses again) that I finally gave in and had trips to my OB-Gyne, Dentist, Breast Surgeon and Nephrologist…

I remember that I still need to have the armpit lump excised so I scheduled an outpatient operation…My breast surgeon however, still needs to ask for clearance from my nephrologists…So my nephrologist ordered for a comprehensive laboratory examination…With the results out…my blood exam (CBC in medical terms) turned out to be more than abnormal…I had to be referred to a hematologist, have a bone marrow aspiration and Boom! Another medical term “Leukemia” added to my frequently used words…

So instead of the excision I am scheduled to have, I was admitted to the hospital for chemotherapy…I also underwent operation, an implantation of a porta-catheter (a catheter connected to a major vein near my heart, for easy administration of intravenous things…oh yeah, I won’t be able to show off my cleavage anymore…) All the other concerns are going to be addressed later on…

I already had 2 chemotherapy sessions, 5 bone marrow aspirations, more than 10 platelet and packed red blood cell transfusions, more than a hundred oral medicines taken, more than a hundred thousand pesos spent and over a million hair strands shed…Still, no assurance of getting well in the days to come…

Despite my eagerness as a kid to make time fly fast, I felt this is God’s way of telling me what really is “fast”…Since end of May until now, I am hanging on to what I call “Divine Mercy”…I would always hear people telling me to be strong, but I guess it’s really different from their point of view to mine…Funny how people with toothache seem to ail too much without thinking that there are others with bigger pains are silently enduring it…

I guess I was too stupid to make things so fast that I forgot to see the minor details that would make MY life more meaningful…But, I guess that stupidity was enough to wake up and help other people make THEIR lives more meaningful…

Hey God, I asked for Fast…but not TOO Fast…

If These Walls Could Talk...

If these walls could talk,

you'd know my body is dead,

my mind has been taken over,

that's why I am so scared,

I can't control it,

If these walls could talk.

If these walls could talk,

you'd know about my fears,

about all those nights I screamed for help,

about all my fallen tears.

You'd know about the demonshaunting me at night,

you'd be able to help mekeep my fire alight,

if these walls could talk.

If these walls could talkthey would say that it's all right,

God sends His angels to look over me at night.

They'd encourage me,

say though I am alone it doesn't mean I‘m on my own.

He watches me, from above and showers me with all His love,

if only these walls could talk.

If only the walls could talk...secrets will never be secrets...

And the cold stone will give you warmth...

Love and Feel Loved

You have to recognize when the right place and the right time fuse and take advantage of that opportunity. There are plenty of opportunities out there. You can't sit back and wait.

Ellen Metcalf

Yes, there will always be lots of opportunities out there...especially the opportunity to love...don't be left behind...love yourself and love other people...

It'll Come....

It'll Come....

we all wonder what will come, will it be warm and safe and filled with fun, our days consumed with life's true tasks, but in the quiet moments we still must ask, what will come, the small child in us all, hopes and prays that they won't fall, and when life's weight seems a ton, we truly look for what will come, to be warm and safe and filled with fun.

Got to accept it...whatever it is...Help me God...Help me make it through...

Thank you...

I would like to sincerely thank everybody who expressed their sympathy, sent inspiring messages through text, friendster and email…To all who have donated blood and those who have at least tried to…To everybody who visited me at the hospital…To all who have comforted and supported my family…and To everybody who have included me in their prayers...You’ve all made the load lighter and helped me be strong…
I am done with my Re-induction chemotherapy just last Monday, my second cycle treatment after only being in partial remission with the first. We are hoping that my system would respond to this one now, and start clearing up the leukemia cells in my body. The doctor allowed me to go home for a while, to rest and be with my baby. I’ll be back in the hospital though, for further treatment and bone marrow transplantation. I hope all will be well in the end…

Maraming maraming salamat and may God bless you all and your families…
You just dunno how much it means to me...